Tuesday, August 11, 2009

I'm still here

These past couple of weeks have been an epic fail for me.

I didn't lose any weight for my trip (surprise, surprise). Actually, I'm at the heaviest that I have ever been. The scale read 264 yesterday morning (hangs head in shame). I have done the exact opposite of what I am supposed to be doing, which is eat right and work out. I've been eating like crazy and my elliptical machine and weights are collecting dust. It's frustrating! I have the tools I need, I know what I need to do and yet my little mind cannot grasp the idea of losing weight. This sucks bad!

And there are more stressful and trying times in store for me.

My boyfriend got let go from his job. So now our already suffering budget is going to be suffering even more. I'm happy that I'm going to be taking this little vacation to Los Angeles, but sad to know that everything I need to worry about will be here when I get back.

But things could be a lot worse, so I have that to be thankful for. I have my health, my job, my boyfriend, mi gato, a roof over our heads and food in our tummies. So really I shouldn't be complaining.

I have lots of stuff to do tonight with the packing and the organizing of the room before we leave, but I'm hoping to get at least 30 minutes on the elliptical. My body is craving movement. I feel like an 80 year old woman with all these aches in my bones, joints, and muscles. Not a good feeling. I know some exercise is just what I need.


  1. Awh, I'm sorry things aren't going too well. Hang in there. The best thing is that each day is a new day... a new day to eat right, a new day to wipe off all that dust. Have a great time in LA... stay strong this week.

  2. Hang in there, is right. Try to remember, just because you had a bad day yesterday, doesn't mean you have to have a bad day today.

  3. It's a hard thing that you're trying to do and of course times are hard now even if you aren't trying to make a life altering change. Just try to smile and keep your head up. It'll get better. You have the will and means, it's gonna happen for you! We all believe in you!

  4. I hope you enjoy your trip and come back fully refreshed. Try not to worry, I know that's difficult, though.

  5. Sorry it's been rough lately. Hope you get refreshed and recharged on your trip and come back ready to get totally focused!

  6. As the others said, I hope things get better. Rest up and enjoy your vacation and come right back to the fight when you get home. Don't give up!

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  7. Sorry it has been so rough & I'm hoping a silver lining appears in those clouds you have hanging above right now.
    Enjoy your trip!