TGIF

Yesterday...um, yesterday was a very calorie filled day. I made the wrong choice of going to McDonald's for breakfast. I was craving it bad, so I went. I need to work on making better choices when I feel the need to get fast food. I'll get there one day.

Thursday
Breakfast: sausage and egg McMuffin, hashbrown, coca-cola
Snack: 3 chocolate chip cookies
Lunch: chicken breast, rice, mashed potatoes (I forgot my cup of broccoli), chocolate pudding
snack: oats and chocolate bar, apple
Dinner: Lasagna, bread, Birthday cake

It was my boyfriend's niece's birthday so I allowed myself some birthday cake. God, I love cake!

Exercise: 30 minutes on the elliptical. I did the full 30 minutes straight!! No breaks for me!

I stepped on the scale this morning. It doesn't look good. But the thing is, I don't feel as fluffy as I used to. So I would think the scale would be going down more. Maybe I'm losing inches or something. But I haven't done any strength training so I don't think that's it.

ZZZZ...Boring!

Yesterday was an ok day.

Wednesday
Breakfast: oatmeal, raisins, peanuts, white chocolate chips
Lunch: Lentils, rice, hamburger
snack: apple, Oats and Chocolate bar
Dinner: chicken breast, rice, mashed potatoes, tomatoes
Snack: small piece of banana bread

Wow, that was a lot of carbs and hardly any fruits and vegetables. We have to go grocery shopping very soon.

No exercise last night. I was feeling really crampy and my head started hurting. It just wasn't a good night. I've been going to sleep later than usual. I'm an HGTV junkie and they've been showing my favorite shows late at night and I stay up to watch them. I think it's starting to catch up to me. I'm exhausted!

That's about all I got!

And she's back in the game...

It's only been one day, but it's good to be back.

Tuesday
Breakfast: oatmeal, almonds, raisins
Lunch: chicken lasagna, chocolate pudding
Snack: apple, Oats and Chocolate bar
Dinner: Rice, Lentils, hamburger, 2 tostones, slice of tomato
Snack: slice of banana bread

Exercise: Late night 30 minutes on the elliptical machine

I have to stop working out so late. I'm exhausted!

I was reading the June issue of Health magazine, and I came across this:

"Weigh in daily. The scale is not your enemy. People who weigh themselves each day seem to lose more weight than people who ignore the scale completely or even once a week."

Hmmm...I'm going to have to disagree. Personally, I find weighing myself daily to be a hindrance to my weight loss efforts. If I do not see it moving down fast enough, I tend to give up. After a very good day of eating right and working out, it's discouraging to not see the scale going down. But we all know how erratic our weight's can be, i.e. that time of the month, water retention, etc., etc. That's why I find it more accurate and more reasonable to have one set day of the week where I weigh myself and use that day's weight as my progress point.

What do you think?

A Long Weekend...

I survived last week and with a loss!

I was down on the scale 0.2 pounds! It ain't much but I will sure take it!!

Food wise, this weekend was a blur. I know I ate lots of junk food.

But I did get exercise in!

Friday: none
Saturday: 30 minutes on the elliptical
Sunday: 30 minutes on the elliptical
Monday: I almost didn't work out but ended up doing it at 10 o'clock at night while watching Paul Blart: Mall Cop. 30 minutes on the elliptical

I have finally come to the realization it's very counterproductive to be making the effort to work out if I'm not being conscious on what I'm eating. They just cancel each other out. And it kind of makes me mad because I could have had a bigger loss if I had been eating right.

I never seem to get working out and eating right at the same time. It's always one or the other. Grr!

P.S. I saw lots of movies this weekend: Bolt, My Bloody Valentine, Valkyrie (I was very surprised by this one. I thought I wasn't going to like it, but it was really good), Paul Blart: Mall Cop, and Angels and Demons. I <3 movies!

Another Bad Day

Oy vey! I'm getting into bad habits again. No, no, no! I was doing so good and now I've sort of thrown all my hard work down the drain because the scale was up this morning. Grrr!! What a waste!

Thursday
Breakfast: Sausage McMuffin with Egg, Hash brown, Coke
I was craving McD's so bad. So I went. No biggie. I ate my breakfast and got the craving out of the way. The rest of the day should of been gravy, right? Wrong!

Snack: Rice Krispie Treat.
Not the small square, the huge long one. I don't really know why I got this.

Lunch: Roasted Chicken, Rice, 1 baby potato, beet salad

Snack: cantaloupe, strawberries, red globe grapes

Here's where I went crazy:
When I got home: 3 Zaxby's chocolate chip cookies, 1 chicken strip, 1 buffalo wing, and a lot of fries
Again, I have no idea why I ate that food.

Dinner: Chicken soup, rice, avocado

No exercise.

Another fail day under my belt. Go me!!

Ummm...

I wasn't going to post today because yesterday wasn't such a great day for me. I got one of those "throw everything in your mouth" urges. And when I got home from work, I did just that.

Wednesday
Breakfast: oatmeal, almonds, raisins, orange juice
Snack: 2 toffee-ettes
Lunch: rice, chicken breast, chard
snack: Fiber one Bar, Cantaloupe, strawberries
Mini Binge: more toffee-ettes, handful of doritos, 1 black bean brownie, 2 tootsie rolls, handful of dried apricots
Dinner: rice, 2 baby potatoes, roasted chicken, beet salad (beets, carrots, tomatoes, avocado...so good!), coke

No exercise.

My binge could have been a lot worse. Good thing there isn't much in the house that can do much damage. I don't know what happened. I wasn't hungry or anything. I just wanted to eat. It was just something to do. I really have to work on that.

I was going through some old photos last night. There were some of me when I lost a ton of weight about 5 years ago. I want to look like that again. I want that feeling of accomplishment I used to get when I saw how small I was getting. I want to be that disciplined again. I still have the clothes that I bought when I lost the weight and I want to fit into them. I can see my mind starting to think like it did back then, but I have a long way to go.

Satan says I think about it way too much. I think about how hard it's going to be, about how long it's going to take, about how much longer I have to go, etc., etc. He says to just do it already! It's just hard not to think about it because it's such a big deal right now. That's another thing I have to work on.

My brain hurts.

ZZZZZZZ

I am so sleepy again this morning. Last night, I went to watch Satan play soccer. We didn't get home until 12:30 am. Way past my bedtime.

Tuesday
Breakfast: oatmeal, raisins, almonds, honey

Lunch: tilapia, 2 shrimp, rice and salad, dr. pepper

snack: cantaloupe, red globe grapes, Fiber one Bar

Dinner: rice, chicken breast, aselgas (My bf and his mom swore this was seaweed, but I looked it up and it's chard...so yum!)

snack: 2 black bean brownies (I think it's time to throw these out).

Exercise: 30 min. on the elliptical

I'm a little upset with myself for having that soft drink during the day. I really shouldn't be drinking them during the week. And those little brownies are getting the best of me. Satan said he was going to throw them out because he catches me sneaking one. Maybe, he shouldn't be called Satan anymore since he has become more supportive. We'll see if he truly deserves a new name.

Excuse me while I take a nap...

I am so sleepy this morning...zzzzzzzzzz...

Yesterday was a good day. It could have been better, but I'm still going to stick it in the "Good Day" pile.

Monday
Breakfast: oatmeal, almonds, raisins, honey, banana

lunch: rice, Colombian beans, avocado

snack: fiber one bar, watermelon, red globe grapes

dinner: tilapia, shrimp, rice, salad

snack: 3 (yes, that's 3!) black bean brownies (I really have to get rid of these), handful of Doritos, 4 dried apricots

exercise: 20 mins. on the elliptical

Me and Satan finally saw that movie Taken. It was lame-o. I should have rented The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. I'll probably get it tonight. Can't beat $1 movies (God bless you, Red Box!)

A weekend and a weigh-in

I haven't been able to post from home, because AT&T is full of caca and our internet is not on right now.

Friday
Breakfast: oatmeal, raisins, almonds, white chocolate chips, OJ

Lunch: rice, meatball, potato

snack: watermelon, 4 pcs. toffee-ettes (sooo good, but soo bad...so so so bad)

Me and Satan went out for dinner with his mother to celebrate my 4 year anniversary at my job. We ended up going to Whole Foods because their Fish and Chips are just as good as Atlanta Fish Market's, but waaaay cheaper!
3 pcs. fish, sauteed veggies, cole slaw, 360 black cherry soda, slice of pb chocolate cheesecake.

Gosh, that food was so yum!! I ate way less than I normally do. I didn't get that gross, bloated, food baby that usually happens when I go out to eat. :D

No exercise :(

Saturday
Breakfast: blueberry smoothie (frozen blueberries and milk and some sugar)...we had absolutely no groceries in the house!

lunch: I met up with Satan while I was out shopping. Subway 6" roast beef sandwich , Sun Chips, Dr. Pepper, 1 Double chocolate chip cookie (Subway cookies are heaven!)

Snack: coke, Fiber 1 bar

dinner: Mashed potatoes, hamburger w/sauteed onions (no bun), salad, some more coke

Later on, we headed over to Satan's friend's house and I had 1 Coronita and 1 carne asada taco

Exercise: 30 minutes on the elliptical

Again, I ate more than I should have, but way less than I normally do.

Sunday
Breakfast: none. Sunday is usually the only day me and Satan have to sleep in, together. We usually roll out of bed at noon.

Lunch: arepa, 1/2 chorizo with lime, orange juice

snack: fiber one bar, cantaloupe drizzled with honey

dinner: rice, Colombian beans, chicharron, arepa

Snack: 2 pcs of black bean brownies (These were freakin' awesome!) I need to be careful with these. It's just too easy to eat too many. Some of Satan's banana split from Brusters.

Exercise: 30 minutes on the elliptical

OK, I drank way too much soft drinks and had a little more desserts than I really should have. Buuuut, I stepped on the scale Sunday morning and was pleasantly surprised!

256.8

That's 2.6 pounds down for the week. I am totally psyched with that.

This is getting easier and easier. It's only been 5 days that I've been really consciously trying to lose weight. But I can see that my mindset is changing about food. I am not constantly thinking about it. I eat my meals and that's it. End of story.

The weekends are really hard for me because that's when I tend to eat just for the hell of it. Not because I'm hungry, just because there's nothing else to do. Good thing I was busy with the grocery shopping on Saturday and the housecleaning on Sunday. Plus, I did get in that exercise on my beloved elliptical machine.

Move more, eat less has been working out for me. I know when (or if) I ever come to that dreaded plateau, I'll have to change things up a bit. But for now, this is my thing and I am totally rocking it.

On a roll?

Can you call being good for 2 days being "on a roll"?

Heck, I can!!

2 days is really nothing but it sure is a start. I can see myself being conscious about eating. My co-worker just offered me half of her bagel which I politely declined. I have my breakfast and don't need anymore food.

Yesterday was a very good day!

Breakfast: oatmeal, 1 T almonds, 1 T raisins, 1/2 T white chocolate chips, oj
Lunch: angel hair, tomatoes, and onions; cantaloupe
snack: apple
dinner: rice, 1/2 potato, 1 meatball, maduro (stewed plantains)

Aaaand....15 minutes on the elliptical! I'm up 2 minutes from yesterday. I think I could have gone longer but then dinner was served and I was starving with a capital S!

Tonight, I have dinner plans with Satan. We're going to Whole Foods so I shouldn't do too much damage. I'm not sure if I'll get in some time on the elliptical, but I'm going to push for it. Already Satan was saying not too work out because there wouldn't be any time for it. Gee, thanks for the support Satan!

(That's strike 2 for him)

Tomorrow morning is my weigh-in. It's only been 2 days but I'm so hoping to see the scale going down(wishful thinking?).

One day down...

A million more to go.

Yesterday was a success if I do say so myself. Well, except for the 6 chocolate kisses that were not part of the plan. But yesterday was WAY better than I have been this past week.

Breakfast: oatmeal, 1 T raisins, 1 T almonds, oj
lunch: arroz con pollo
snack: apple
Uncalled for snack: 6 chocolate kisses
dinner: angel hair pasta with onions and tomatoes, tuna, 2 tostadas (fried plaintain)

I think I should explain what type of eating plan I am trying to follow. Well, I'm not really trying to follow ANY plan. My biggest obstacle is stopping for breakfast or lunch at the McDonald's or Burger King by my work. Besides being so bad for me, I have been wasting way too much money there. So, one of my goals is to cut out fast food from my menus. And if I must, then my choices should be good ones. Second, no more junk food. Chips, cookies, candies, sodas, etc. I just eat way too much of them and they trigger some kind of monster in me to go on an eating frenzy and I just end up feeling like caca.

Basically, the plan is to eat less move more.

And my first attempt to move more was pretty pathetic. I did the elliptical for, get this, a whole 12 minutes! Go me!! I don't know if it's because I'm out of shape or because the elliptical machine is not working properly but yesterday, I about killed my calves and thighs. To me it feels like the tension setting on the elliptical is too high, but it is on the lowest setting. Hmmm?? I can't complain though because it is a really good machine and it was free. I guess I'll just have to gradually work up my endurance on that machine a little bit at a time.

(Please don't laugh at my pitiful 12 minute workout.)

I'm really bad at this...

Monday + Tuesday = EPIC FAIL

How sad is that? I couldn't even get through the first two days with staying on track.

Monday
I started off great. Had my oatmeal, nuts, and raisins for breakfast. Had some rice, chicken, and veggies for lunch. Ate a fiber one snack bar (mocha chocolate is thee best!). Then had this conversation:

Bf (we'll call him Satan): My mom gave me some money. Let's go eat out tonight!
Me: No, that's ok. I've been doing really good. I'll just eat whatever your mom cooks for dinner.
Satan: Pleeease? I want us to eat together and then we'll watch a movie. It'll be the last time. I promise.
Me: Ok, you talked me into it.

I don't know who was the bad guy there...him, for not being supportive and tempting me; or me, for not resisting temptation?

(I know it was me.)

On the way home, I stopped to get something at Kroger. Well, since I was going to eat out tonight, I had to get a pack of Rollos and continue to devour the entire pack. If I was going to ruin my day, I might as well have ruined it good, right?

The rest of the day went like this:
Cheeseburger (notice I didn't say Little Cheeseburger...if you've been to Five Guys before, you know what this means), some fries, Cherry Coke, that pesky pack of Rollos. Satan's mom cooked dinner, so I had to eat some of that. Good thing it was something I wasn't too fond of so I didn't eat much of it.

Continuing on to Tuesday...

I messed up Monday, but it was only one day so I just needed to get back on the wagon and continue on. Easy, right? Wrong!

Breakfast: oatmeal, 1 T raisins, 1 T almonds
snack: grilled cheese sandwich with tomatoes
lunch: McChicken, medium fries, medium coke
Snack: 2 hostess cupcakes
dinner: arroz con pollo, carrot soup, handful of Doritos

I'm a horrible, horrible person. Not really. I'm just not very good at telling myself "NO! You can't have that."

I feel so much better to get it all off my chest. Hopefully, having the world see what I pig I am will snap some sense into me.

Pssst...

I have a secret.

Okay, I have lots of secrets.

I don't recognize myself in the mirror anymore.

I feel so unpretty.

My underwear keep rolling under my stomach.

I'm scared of getting diabetes or dying of a heart attack (runs in the family).

I break out in a sweat for doing absolutely nothing at all.

I hate being around skinny people. Just makes me feel THAT much fatter.

I save living my life for later, for "after I lose the weight".

That is why I am here. To take control over my weight so that it doesn't control me. Life is so short, and tomorrow isn't guaranteed. I can't keep saving everything for later. I need to do it today. And I know, if I lose all this weight, I can start doing just that.

Maybe I'm wrong to let what I look like have such an impact on how I live my life but it is what it is. Maybe my way of thinking will change as time goes by, but I'm not willing to risk wasting any more time. I've wasted enough already.