So....

I took a break this past week from weight loss. I ate what I wanted. I haven't stepped in the gym since last Tuesday. I just haven't been into it. And even though I am one hundred pounds overweight, it's OK.

But to tell you the truth, I feel awful. I'm bloated. I'm cranky. And I just don't feel right.

I still wouldn't feel right trying to get back into it, though. My head isn't there. At least not yet.

I've given myself until Saturday night. Ready or not, I need to get into weight loss mode starting Sunday morning. And the right way. So once and for all, I can lose the weight and keep it off.

Because seriously, I am starting to get sick of this blog.

What's a weight loss blog without any weight loss?

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I finally braved the scale this morning. Up 2 pounds. It wasn't as bad as I thought. I actually thought I'd be up to 260 because of all the chips and cookies and soda I've been having. But thank gosh, it's only 2 pounds.

That's only 18,900 calories I need to burn starting on Sunday to get under the 250's.

Psssh....piece of cake. =/

Back...

and the weather sucks!!!

The weather was so nice in LA - sunny days, cool nights. My kind of weather. But now I'm back to reality to this 90 degree, stifling hot, I-can't-breathe Georgia heat. Yuck!

My weekend in LA was fabulous. I spent lots of time with my family and I'm happy about that because that was the whole purpose of the trip. But my family is crazy. And it's nice to be back to peace and quiet. =)

I didn't do too badly on this trip. I think. I did eat a lot but not as much as I thought I would be eating. The saddest part about everything is I didn't even get my Pizookie. I seriously wanted one but never got the chance. Who knows how long I have to wait until I get another chance to get one.

But it's Monday, and you know what that means. "It's a new day and I know I can do this!" Lol Yup, it's that kind of Monday. Except I already had a crappy breakfast. But it's no biggie, I just have to keep on keepin' on. I really need to go to the gym but I am still kind of exhausted from the trip and I just might stay home tonight and catch up on some zzzzzz's.

Oh yes, I forgot. I finally got my love back. Yes, my scale. I stepped on it last night and it wasn't where I wanted it to be. But Friday is thee day so I'm hoping I can get back on point so that I am finally out of the 250's. You don't know how bad I want to see a 2 and a 4. I know my eating habits and my laziness say otherwise, but seriously, I want to be there. Because then I will be that much closer to the 230's, then the 220's, and so on and so on.

Wow, I really need to get on this.

What the????

Where has the time gone? I can't believe it has been more than a week since my last post.

Not much has happened though. I have spent some time at the gym. I've had a few good eating days. I've had a few (maybe a tad more than a few) bad eating days. But I'm still here.

My scale is MIA at the moment. Well, not exactly missing because I know who has it. I just don't when I'll get it back. It's kind of nice not being a slave to the scale. Not!! I want to know if I've gained any weight or if I am finally under 250. I am seriously dying to know. Plus, I hate not being able to update my weigh-ins on the side over there ------>.

I just feel so....incomplete.

All joking aside, I'll weigh myself when I weigh myself. I am really hoping that I get MY scale back. I'm kind of attached to it. Besides, it's really pretty. And I love it. And I don't want to start messing with a new scale and come back with a totally different weight. You know how all scales are not created equal, right? But that saying is in regards to the quality of the scale and not how good of a liar it is. Am I right? Or am I way off?

I'm really trying to get back on track. Obviously, not today because my breakfast consisted of chocolate milk and donuts. But I should be good the rest of the day. And I'm planning on going to the gym. Unless I take a glorious nap when I get home and don't wake up until tomorrow morning. I am that exhausted.

And I have to get on track because I'll he heading to Los Angeles in a couple of days. I'm going to spend some much needed quality time with the familia. And quality time means eating some of my favorite foods that I haven't had in almost a year. And favorite means yummy carne asada tacos from King Taco, a pizookie from BJ's and yummy yummy chili cheese fries from The Hat. Yes, people, that's how fat I am. I have my meals planned out.

Oh, gosh, I need help.

Working on it...

I had a minor setback yesterday. An Arby's setback, to be exact. It was delicious! But it was so bad of me. But, I've already been reprimanded by the boyfriend so it's time to move on.

Because of that setback, I had a rumbly in my tumbly. And it wasn't a hunger rumbly. So I opted out of the gym. And I took a nap for 3 glorious hours. It was awesome.

The scale was very good to me this morning. There was a loss of 1 pound, so I'm back down to what I was a couple of weeks ago. I still deserve that 5 pound lost button!

Yay me!

I'm very confident that the scale will be even lower at my next weigh in. Today I'm continuing on the good fight with good eating habits and a good workout at the gym. But I'm really, really craving McDonald's right now. Specifically those chocolate pies. They're so good. Maybe after my snack of yogurt and berries I won't crave them so much (wishful thinking?).

I don't want chocolate pies. I don't want chocolate pies. I don't want chocolate pies...

It's Friday. Hallelujah! Have a great weekend!

Smile...

...though your heart is aching.

Today is a tough day. Today, June 3rd, is the 2ND anniversary of my dad's death. I miss him so much. It's been a while since I've cried thinking about him. It's gotten a bit easier, I guess. But I still miss him. Some times, at the most randomest moments, memories of the day that I received the phone call that changed my life forever, pop into my head. But most times, I am thinking about the memories I have of him. The funny things he did to make me laugh. The sacrifices he made for me, my brother and my sister. Just the little things that made him so special.

Gosh, I really do miss him.

I'm not in the mood for much blogging so I'll just tell you that I had a very good day with my eating on Wednesday. And I finished off the day with a great workout.

=)

Staying on track...

...is harder than it looks.

But it's not impossible. Yesterday was proof of that. Well, almost.

The morning started off great. I had my turkey and tomato sandwich and then I threw in a banana. I drank my 16 oz. of water. I was feeling good. As I got closer to lunchtime, I could feel those snacking urges kick in. But nope, I waited until lunch and had a delicious serving of red beans and rice with an apple. I also polished off my second glass of agua. It started getting a little tougher as the day wore on. I got to eat my yummylicious snack of yogurt, berries and almonds. But that wasn't holding me over until I got home. So, my eating took a turn for the worst by me consuming some Nutter Butters, then some animal crackers, and finally some cheddar cheese rice cakes. Now, of course, I'm exaggerating and they were the mini kinds and I ate, maybe, only like 5 of each (except for those nutter butters!!). Although, I went off my path for a bit I finished the day out right with a healthy dinner and the rest of my water.

And there was no soda involved.

It also helps that I had an uhmazing workout. I finished up my night at the gym with some steam room time and I was walking on cloud nine. The steam room is heavenly. If you have one at your gym (or better yet, your house) and you haven't tried it, you are seriously missing out.

Although, my day wasn't perfect, it sure was good enough. For me, anyway. Besides, who wants perfect? I like a challenge.

=)

Out of oblivion...

...for now.

I love me a good 3-day weekend. Sleeping until 2 in the afternoon, getting 12 hours of sleep, eating whatever I want. What's not to love? That's exactly what I did this Memorial weekend. Relaxed ate some yummy Colombian and Mexican food. And then there was some pizza too. I watched lots of movies and cuddled with the boyfriend lots. It was the perfect weekend.

But now it's back to reality. And I have to face that one pound gain that I had last week. Ugh! Last week started off so good: my eating was on point and so was my working out. But then, like always, it turned to caca. I started eating lots of junk and I only made it to the gym 3 days. 3 days?!?! That's very upsetting especially since I pay so much in fees for the gym. I loathe wasting money (no I don't).

God Bless the start of a new week!

The boyfriend has inspired (more like bullied) me into to starting a new plan. He has been doing so good on his plan and he feels great (except for his sinuses that have been bothering him). And so I was like, "Hey, I want to feel good too. I need to get in on this." It's no big secret, he's just really watching what he eats.

So, the new plan is to journal everything. No more soda (sob), junk food, or sweets. And it's back to the gym this week. It's going to be tough, especially that no soda rule, but I think I can do it. I know you all are thinking "This chick sounds like a broken record. She says this EVERY Monday." But I'm for serious this time.

Seriously. =)