I'm feeling Hefty

Well, I got a lot out of Reason #1. A whole day of working out. Not working out all day, but a workout. I'll explain.

My Tuesday had started off not so great. I had a crappy breakfast and ate some crappy food throughout the day. But then I got some things off my chest. And after that, I felt super duper awesome throughout the rest of the day. Especially at the gym. I hopped on to the elliptical machine and worked my little huge flat butt off. Yes, I pushed myself and kept going over and over that post in my head until I had completed one hour straight on that damn machine. My boyfriend was very impressed. Heck, I was impressed. And I never did believe in that whole talking to and pumping yourself up sort of thing. I guess I showed myself.

But I wasn't prepared to milk that one amazing feat for the next 2 days. You know what I'm talking about. "I ate a healthy breakfast and lunch, so one bag of Hershey kisses won't hurt me" or "I've been working out so good during the week, I'm going to eat whatever I want on the weekend." The whole justifying your bad habits is totally warped but I am a pro at it. So, because of one measly hour of amazing huffing and puffing, I gave myself 2 days off at the gym.

And my eating has been....there are no words.

Wait, yes there are.

Wednesday - Friday = fast food nation.

Seriously though, I am so tired of fast food. I am craving a good, light, home-cooked meal. Man, they are right. You are what you eat. I've been eating shit and now I look and feel like shit. Oh, how I hate when they are right.

To get rid of this crappy feeling, this weekend is going to be full of workouts and great, healthy, and yummy food. I will pump my chubby legs until they can't pumps no more. I will have to get my cook on as the head chef is on vacation here at Casa Fatty Pants. I'm thinking of trying to convince the boyfriend to fire up the grill for some BBQ tomorrow. Add lots and lots of water to that mix and this weekend should be gravy.

And maybe those 2 pounds, that I pretended to not see this morning on the scale, will be gone.

For good.

P.S. Obviously I'm not an expert, but seriously, if you are having a hard time getting through workouts or even starting a workout, think long and hard about one thing you want. To fit into some shorts, to lose 5 pounds, to not be so jealous of other girls (ahem), etc. Really, think about it. Think about that and only that. It'll make your workout a piece of cake. Trust me.

Reason #1

As far as I can remember, I have been an envier of other people's lives. I have envied that girl because her body is to die for. I have envied that girl because she wears the cutest outfits. I have envied that girl because she looks like she is always having fun. I could go on for days, but I'm sure you get my point.

The #1 reason why I envy is pretty obvious? I'm fat.

Being fat:

I am super insecure in my body.
I don't like going out because of that insecurity (Will people stare at me? Will people make fun of me?).
I can't enjoy myself when I'm out with my boyfriend (Do we look funny together, him being hot and me being...not?).
I don't get to wear the things I really want to wear, thus having no style whatsoever.
I don't approach people making it super hard for me to meet new people and make friends.

Again, I could go on and on but I'm sure you get my point.

I envy those girls with the uber confidence. Those girls who don't give a damn what other people think and just live their lives the way want to. I want to be one of those girls. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not saying you have to be a certain size to have confidence. But for me, personally, I believe being at the weight I am has tons to do with my confidence.

Or I could be way off and I really am a goober.

But maybe, just maybe, I'm not.

I have only known myself as being this akward, heavy girl. I have no idea what kind of person I would be if I was happy and comfortable in my own skin because I have never been.

So really, am I this cool person, with lots of confidence and who is happy with herself trapped inside this blob dripping with negativity and self-doubt? Can I be the type of person who is not the envier but the enviee (trust me, that's a word. enviee - a person who is envied). Am I? Can I?

And to think I have held the solution to these questions in my chubby, sweaty hands for 17 years.

The answer is...all together, now...lose weight!

Yes, lose weight and get healthy. Challenge myself to lose the bad habits I have grown accustomed to over the years. Really see what I'm made of.

The first step to changing anything in life is admitting you have a problem.

My name is Little Miss Fatty Pants and I'm an envidiosa (it sounds so nice in Spanish but really it's not).

It's time to change that.

....

It's been a ghost town around here.

Not because I've been bad, just because I haven't had a chance to log in.

Now I'm not going to mislead you and say I have been excellent because, honestly, I haven't.

But I am back in the gym. Hooray!! Even though I almost died last night in my Kickbox Jam class, hooray!!

The eating is still not under control. Boo.

I'm down 1.6 pounds for the week. Double hooray! I guess the working out is paying off.

So, slowly but surely I'm getting to the 240's. So stoked about that.

And that's all I've got.

Have a great holiday weekend!!

So....

I took a break this past week from weight loss. I ate what I wanted. I haven't stepped in the gym since last Tuesday. I just haven't been into it. And even though I am one hundred pounds overweight, it's OK.

But to tell you the truth, I feel awful. I'm bloated. I'm cranky. And I just don't feel right.

I still wouldn't feel right trying to get back into it, though. My head isn't there. At least not yet.

I've given myself until Saturday night. Ready or not, I need to get into weight loss mode starting Sunday morning. And the right way. So once and for all, I can lose the weight and keep it off.

Because seriously, I am starting to get sick of this blog.

What's a weight loss blog without any weight loss?

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I finally braved the scale this morning. Up 2 pounds. It wasn't as bad as I thought. I actually thought I'd be up to 260 because of all the chips and cookies and soda I've been having. But thank gosh, it's only 2 pounds.

That's only 18,900 calories I need to burn starting on Sunday to get under the 250's.

Psssh....piece of cake. =/

Back...

and the weather sucks!!!

The weather was so nice in LA - sunny days, cool nights. My kind of weather. But now I'm back to reality to this 90 degree, stifling hot, I-can't-breathe Georgia heat. Yuck!

My weekend in LA was fabulous. I spent lots of time with my family and I'm happy about that because that was the whole purpose of the trip. But my family is crazy. And it's nice to be back to peace and quiet. =)

I didn't do too badly on this trip. I think. I did eat a lot but not as much as I thought I would be eating. The saddest part about everything is I didn't even get my Pizookie. I seriously wanted one but never got the chance. Who knows how long I have to wait until I get another chance to get one.

But it's Monday, and you know what that means. "It's a new day and I know I can do this!" Lol Yup, it's that kind of Monday. Except I already had a crappy breakfast. But it's no biggie, I just have to keep on keepin' on. I really need to go to the gym but I am still kind of exhausted from the trip and I just might stay home tonight and catch up on some zzzzzz's.

Oh yes, I forgot. I finally got my love back. Yes, my scale. I stepped on it last night and it wasn't where I wanted it to be. But Friday is thee day so I'm hoping I can get back on point so that I am finally out of the 250's. You don't know how bad I want to see a 2 and a 4. I know my eating habits and my laziness say otherwise, but seriously, I want to be there. Because then I will be that much closer to the 230's, then the 220's, and so on and so on.

Wow, I really need to get on this.

What the????

Where has the time gone? I can't believe it has been more than a week since my last post.

Not much has happened though. I have spent some time at the gym. I've had a few good eating days. I've had a few (maybe a tad more than a few) bad eating days. But I'm still here.

My scale is MIA at the moment. Well, not exactly missing because I know who has it. I just don't when I'll get it back. It's kind of nice not being a slave to the scale. Not!! I want to know if I've gained any weight or if I am finally under 250. I am seriously dying to know. Plus, I hate not being able to update my weigh-ins on the side over there ------>.

I just feel so....incomplete.

All joking aside, I'll weigh myself when I weigh myself. I am really hoping that I get MY scale back. I'm kind of attached to it. Besides, it's really pretty. And I love it. And I don't want to start messing with a new scale and come back with a totally different weight. You know how all scales are not created equal, right? But that saying is in regards to the quality of the scale and not how good of a liar it is. Am I right? Or am I way off?

I'm really trying to get back on track. Obviously, not today because my breakfast consisted of chocolate milk and donuts. But I should be good the rest of the day. And I'm planning on going to the gym. Unless I take a glorious nap when I get home and don't wake up until tomorrow morning. I am that exhausted.

And I have to get on track because I'll he heading to Los Angeles in a couple of days. I'm going to spend some much needed quality time with the familia. And quality time means eating some of my favorite foods that I haven't had in almost a year. And favorite means yummy carne asada tacos from King Taco, a pizookie from BJ's and yummy yummy chili cheese fries from The Hat. Yes, people, that's how fat I am. I have my meals planned out.

Oh, gosh, I need help.

Working on it...

I had a minor setback yesterday. An Arby's setback, to be exact. It was delicious! But it was so bad of me. But, I've already been reprimanded by the boyfriend so it's time to move on.

Because of that setback, I had a rumbly in my tumbly. And it wasn't a hunger rumbly. So I opted out of the gym. And I took a nap for 3 glorious hours. It was awesome.

The scale was very good to me this morning. There was a loss of 1 pound, so I'm back down to what I was a couple of weeks ago. I still deserve that 5 pound lost button!

Yay me!

I'm very confident that the scale will be even lower at my next weigh in. Today I'm continuing on the good fight with good eating habits and a good workout at the gym. But I'm really, really craving McDonald's right now. Specifically those chocolate pies. They're so good. Maybe after my snack of yogurt and berries I won't crave them so much (wishful thinking?).

I don't want chocolate pies. I don't want chocolate pies. I don't want chocolate pies...

It's Friday. Hallelujah! Have a great weekend!

Smile...

...though your heart is aching.

Today is a tough day. Today, June 3rd, is the 2ND anniversary of my dad's death. I miss him so much. It's been a while since I've cried thinking about him. It's gotten a bit easier, I guess. But I still miss him. Some times, at the most randomest moments, memories of the day that I received the phone call that changed my life forever, pop into my head. But most times, I am thinking about the memories I have of him. The funny things he did to make me laugh. The sacrifices he made for me, my brother and my sister. Just the little things that made him so special.

Gosh, I really do miss him.

I'm not in the mood for much blogging so I'll just tell you that I had a very good day with my eating on Wednesday. And I finished off the day with a great workout.

=)

Staying on track...

...is harder than it looks.

But it's not impossible. Yesterday was proof of that. Well, almost.

The morning started off great. I had my turkey and tomato sandwich and then I threw in a banana. I drank my 16 oz. of water. I was feeling good. As I got closer to lunchtime, I could feel those snacking urges kick in. But nope, I waited until lunch and had a delicious serving of red beans and rice with an apple. I also polished off my second glass of agua. It started getting a little tougher as the day wore on. I got to eat my yummylicious snack of yogurt, berries and almonds. But that wasn't holding me over until I got home. So, my eating took a turn for the worst by me consuming some Nutter Butters, then some animal crackers, and finally some cheddar cheese rice cakes. Now, of course, I'm exaggerating and they were the mini kinds and I ate, maybe, only like 5 of each (except for those nutter butters!!). Although, I went off my path for a bit I finished the day out right with a healthy dinner and the rest of my water.

And there was no soda involved.

It also helps that I had an uhmazing workout. I finished up my night at the gym with some steam room time and I was walking on cloud nine. The steam room is heavenly. If you have one at your gym (or better yet, your house) and you haven't tried it, you are seriously missing out.

Although, my day wasn't perfect, it sure was good enough. For me, anyway. Besides, who wants perfect? I like a challenge.

=)

Out of oblivion...

...for now.

I love me a good 3-day weekend. Sleeping until 2 in the afternoon, getting 12 hours of sleep, eating whatever I want. What's not to love? That's exactly what I did this Memorial weekend. Relaxed ate some yummy Colombian and Mexican food. And then there was some pizza too. I watched lots of movies and cuddled with the boyfriend lots. It was the perfect weekend.

But now it's back to reality. And I have to face that one pound gain that I had last week. Ugh! Last week started off so good: my eating was on point and so was my working out. But then, like always, it turned to caca. I started eating lots of junk and I only made it to the gym 3 days. 3 days?!?! That's very upsetting especially since I pay so much in fees for the gym. I loathe wasting money (no I don't).

God Bless the start of a new week!

The boyfriend has inspired (more like bullied) me into to starting a new plan. He has been doing so good on his plan and he feels great (except for his sinuses that have been bothering him). And so I was like, "Hey, I want to feel good too. I need to get in on this." It's no big secret, he's just really watching what he eats.

So, the new plan is to journal everything. No more soda (sob), junk food, or sweets. And it's back to the gym this week. It's going to be tough, especially that no soda rule, but I think I can do it. I know you all are thinking "This chick sounds like a broken record. She says this EVERY Monday." But I'm for serious this time.

Seriously. =)

I could sleep all day...

Last night, I didn't get to bed until really late. The boyfriend and I got into chatting and time just flew by. I know what I'll be catching up on this weekend.

This morning's weigh in was a nice one. I'm down 1.6 pounds for the week. High fives all around!! And I am at the lowest that I have been since I started this whole mess!!

Yesterday, I went to my beloved Kickbox Jam class. Seriously, guys, I love this class. I sweat so much and get some cardio out of it. Plus, the instructor is a fun guy. I'm really sad that this class is only taught a couple times a week. And I am only able to make it to two days. Sad face from me.

My eating was just ok. I was a Snacky McSnackerson yesterday. But better than I have been. And Praise Jesus, those chocolate chip cookies are gone. I don't have much plans for the weekend, so I will concentrate on the eating.

I just realized that I've lost 5 pounds!! Woo hoo!! It's not a lot but it's something. And it's that much closer to 10 pounds!! I think I deserve a reward.

Thank you Scale Junkie!

Have a great weekend!!

Time is on my side...

Yes, it is.

Actually time is just flying by. I can't believe it's almost Friday already. And I can't believe it's almost June!!

Tuesday workout
30 minutes on the treadmill
30 minutes on the elliptical

Wednesday workout
20 minutes on the treadmill
20 minutes on the elliptical
Weights

I've decided to go back to my roots and start working out on the elliptical machine again. It's such a great workout with not too much strain on my knees, so I'm loving it.

I've been a bit better on the eating front. I did make the mistake of baking some chocolate chip cookies the other day, so the cookie monster inside me has escaped. But the cookies are almost gone (I'm hoping by the time I get home tonight), so he'll get tucked away soon enough.

Tonight is Kickbox Jam night at the gym!! Woo hoo!!

(Look how far I've come...I'm actually looking forward to working out!!)

Today is not Monday...

but I'm going to recap the weekend anyway.

On Friday, the boyfriend and I decided to take a day off from the gym. We went out to eat with a friend instead.

I actually woke up at 9:30 in the morning on Saturday to get to a Kickbox Jam class. I told you I loved that class. It's going to be my Thursday and Saturday workout from now on. After the gym, me and the boyfriend ran all over town doing errands. I was beat by the time we got home.

Sunday was a lazy day. I love those days. Sleeping in, staying in your jammies all day. Those are my kind of days!!

Yesterday, I had one of the best workouts that I've had in a long time. 20 minutes on the elliptical, 20 minutes on the treadmill, and 20 minutes on the cross ramp. Plus, lots of weights. I was at the gym for 2 hours. Whoa!! I think I spend way too much time there. But it's all for a good cause, right?

On the eating front, well, you know how that goes. But I'm slowly starting to grasp the idea that my workouts are pretty much going down the drain if I continue to eat loads of junk food. Seriously, what's the point of working my butt off at the gym if I'm going to stuff my face with chips and McDonald's? I do love that stuff, but I need to have them more as a treat and not on a daily basis. I'm not there yet, but I am really trying to get there.

Did you guys hear about Juan Carlos Cruz??? So bizarre! And I used to love his show 'Weighin In' and 'Calorie Commando'! =(

Some workouts and a weigh in...

First thing to get off my chest is my weigh in. It was not a pretty one. I was up 1.2 pounds for the week. That really sucks.

I have been doing really good with the workouts. I have been to the gym every day this week and have gotten some pretty good sweat sessions in. But from that weigh in, you can tell my eating hasn't been very good. It still hasn't clicked in my head that "hey, just because I'm working out doesn't mean I can eat whatever I want." It's not that hard of a concept, but I'm a real hard head (just ask my boyfriend and my mom). So who knows when it'll start to dawn on me that if I want to see some real, true results, I'm going to have to start working on my eating.

I tried the Hip Hop class the other day. It was a big NO NO. I did not like it one bit. It started off great with the warm up but then it turned into one big routine. Now, I used to be a cheerleader (I know, hard to believe) so I am all for learning routines. But not learning them in 20 minutes! Let's just say I didn't get the routine down and I looked like a fool. It was not fun for me at all.

I was starting to think that taking classes at the gym would be a lost cause until last night. I took the Kickbox Jam class. I L-O-V-E-D it!! It was so much fun!! It wasn't so much a routine. More like a bunch of moves put together. There were times when I was lost, but I was having too much fun to really care how I looked. And I left the class drenched in sweat. This is definitely going to go on the workout regime.

I also tried a Core class last night. Big mistake. I am way too big to be taking a class like that. We had to use those balance trainers. I seriously thought I was going to pop mine. The concept of the class is a great one because I really felt the burn, but at my weight, it's just not a comfortable class for me to take. =(

So pretty much all those workouts went to waste with my eating habits. Grrr! Come on, Little Miss Fatty Pants!!! This isn't rocket science. This shouldn't be THAT hard!! What the heck am I waiting for?!?!

I'm your biggest fan, I'll follow you until you love me...

Made it to the gym last night. I was fighting with the boyfriend to not go to the gym. But he won (very unusual) and we ended up going. I felt really good afterward. I hate it when he's right!!

Got in 30 minutes on the cross ramp and about half an hour with the weights. I finally got back into squats. They hurt so good, but they make me feel ALIVE!! I love feeling the burn!! But two days of weights and my arms feel like they are going to fall off.

I have a new gym buddy so tonight we are going to try a class. I'm finally taking advantage of what this gym has to offer (and finally getting my money's worth!). It's a hip hop class so we'll see how that goes.

One more thing, I saw this vid and I am utterly amazed at this kid's talent. His performance seriously gave me goosebumps. You've probably seen it already (he's going to be on ELLEN tomorrow) but watch it again...it's amazing!

A post about nothing...

Is better than no post at all.

I have been feeling pretty blah lately. About weight loss, about bills, about a certain someones family members. I hate when I let insignificant things bring me down. That's not what life is supposed to be about. I do know I have gotten loads better about enjoying life with what I have and enjoying it with the people that I care about (just ask my boyfriend), but sometimes I find myself slipping back into my "Woe is me" mindset. Grrrr! Oh, how I hate that.

But no more tristeza for me.

I get to go home to the two loves of my life. Thinking about the time I get to spend with them totally brightens my day.

So, Friday was a pretty mediocre (according to the boyfriend) workout day. My knee was really bothering me. That stair master messed me up bad. So all I did was weights and I walked 15 minutes on the treadmill. I didn't even sweat that much.

Saturday and Sunday - there was no workout. There just wasn't time. I loooove to sleep in on the weekends and we had some plans with some of the boyfriend's friends on Saturday, so we didn't get a chance to make it to the gym. We got in pretty late Saturday night, so we slept most of Sunday. Don't you just love those relaxing days where you just sleep, do nothing, and laze around the house? Gosh, how I love those days.

But it was back to business on Monday!! I did all the weight machines that I usually do. Except for the leg one, I'm pretty scared of hurting my knee so I'll stay away from leg exercises for awhile. I got in 15 minutes on the cross ramp and 15 minutes on the treadmill. And I actually jogged for 3 minutes straight! Whoa!! It actually wasn't that hard. But when I tried to do my next interval, my calf started to hurt real bad so I was only able to walk the rest of the way. But I was back to my old, sweaty self.

Oh, yeah, nothing new on the food front. I'm still eating junk food.

Wow, that was a whole lotta post about nothing!!! =D

Oh, what a feeling!!

I have been eating way too much but I don't care because I was down 2 pounds on the scale this morning!! Woo hoo!!! I am getting closer and closer to the 240's.

I didn't make it to the gym on Wednesday (I just wanted to relax and play with my Cricut). But it was game on on Thursday night. I got in 20 minutes on the cross ramp. Now get this, I got in 10 minutes on the stairmaster. Yea, I don't know how I did it. Trust me, I was in pain and I regretted it later on when I tried jogging on the treadmill. Seriously, I got the worst feeling in my feet and my calves. Maybe the stairmaster just isn't for me. I finished out my cardio with 15 minutes on the treadmill. And there were weight machines thrown in there also.

Happy Mother's Day to all the mommies out there!!! Hope you get spoiled rotten on your special day!!

This is not a good feeling!

Getting back to the gym does not feel great. In fact, being back is downright painful!

The boyfriend and I finally got to the gym last night. It was so tough getting into working out. I was really lazy. I had the worst headache. But I still had to get my butt in there and continue on with some exercise.

I went ahead and did 30 minutes on the cross ramp (I still love that machine!). Then I thought I'd mix it up and try out the stair master. Ohmygoodnessgracious! That thing literally beat me up. I could only last 7 minutes on it. My legs were seriously on fire throughout those entire 7 minutes. And I was out of breath. On level 1. It was pitiful. But at least it was a start.

I finished out the rest of my 23 minutes on the treadmill, no incline. My legs were still burning up so I decided to just walk it out.

Am I only one who gets their butt handed to them on the stairmaster? Is it really that hard or am I just being a weenie (an out of shape one at that)??

My calves are killing me today. So, so sore. But it's back to the gym tonight. The good thing is it is a weight day, so a little less cardio. My legs will be thanking me tomorrow.

And....I'm back.

My weekend was SUPERFUN! Super exhausting, but mostly superfun!

The boyfriend and I left Atlanta on Thursday night. We got into New York around 2 o'clock in the afternoon Friday. Yes, people. We drove 18 hours straight. A car ride that was supposed to be only 14-15 hours turned into 18 after making numerous stops and getting lost a couple of times. We slept for a couple of hours when we got in and then headed into the city to visit Times Square.

(Oh yeah, did you hear about that car bomb in Times Square? We were there on that same exact street only 12 hours earlier. My boyfriend was totally freaking out all Sunday and Monday.)

On Saturday, we slept in because of our late night in the city. We then had the yummiest Portuguese chicken ever. We then had to say goodbye to New York and be on our way to Jersey for a concert. We got lost before finally getting to our destination. We were only able to see 4 bands: Angels and Airwaves, Something Corporate, Drake (<3), Paramore. Drake was superawesome but Paramore's set was totally disappointing. And they were the whole entire reason why we drove all that way.

After the concert, there was no way we were going to continue driving so we stopped at a hotel for the night. Got some sleep and headed home on Sunday afternoon. We finally got into Atlanta at 2 o'clock Monday morning.

It feels great to be back. There's nothing like getting a good night's sleep in your OWN bed.

Plus, we got to get home to this:

I didn't eat too much. But my choices weren't the greatest. The only exercise I got in was tons of walking in Times Square (we lost our car) and tons of walking at the concert.

I did get a peek at the scale yesterday morning though. And I was pleasantly surprised to see it was down. Yes!!! I just hope it stays down until my weigh-in on Friday. I'm back to trying to eat better and I'll be heading back to the gym tonight, so I think I should be good.

I hope so, at least.

Is it normal for your head to be pounding?

I feel like I'm hungover. But I haven't taken a drink since last August. (I lie, the last drink I had was a month ago.) Hope this feeling goes away as the day goes on.

I weighed in this morning so I will be on the road tomorrow morning. Drumroll please...the scale was down 0.4 pounds. Whoopdifreakingdo. Well, at least I lost that weight I gained from last week.

The workouts so far have been:

Monday: 15 min. treadmill, 30 min. crossramp, weight machines and abs
Tuesday: None
Wednesday: 15 min treadmill, 30 min crossramp, weight machines and abs
Thursday: Will be none
Friday: will be lots of walking
Saturday: will be lots of walking
Sunday: none

Not a lot of exercise or eating right planned ahead. But I'm okay with that. I'll just try my best to get that walking in. And hopefully I'll be at the same weight or less (wishful thinking? I think so).

At the end of the day, this is what I have to look forward to:
Yee haw!!

Who here loves Mondays?

Seriously, is there any one out there who is actually excited about Mondays?

I'm very happy to say that last week was a very productive week at the gym.

Let's see how it all went down:

Monday: 30 min. cross ramp, 15 min. treadmill, weights
Tuesday: 30 min. cross ramp, 30 min. treadmill
Wednesday: 30 min. cross ramp, 15 min. treadmill, weights
Thursday: 30 min. cross ramp, 30 min. treadmill, abs
Friday: 15 min. cross ramp, 15 min. treadmill, 15 min. elliptical, weights and abs
Saturday: 15 min. cross ramp, 15 min. treadmill, weights and abs
Sunday: Rest Day

I'm pretty sure that's how it went. I really should write down what it is that I'm doing each day. That way I don't forget.

By the way, the cross ramp is my new best friend. It's a great workout and leaves my butt feeling all warm and tingly. Well, I think it's the cross ramp that is cause of that feeling. Or it could be walking hills on the treadmill. I dunno.

Last week's eating is a totally different story. Lots of fast food involved. But I really controlled myself on the weekend and didn't eat too badly. So, that fluff feeling is gone and I'm actually feeling pretty svelte.

I did get to weigh in on Friday morn' and the scale was up 0.4 pounds. I wasn't surprised, because like I said I ate tons of junk food last week. But I did step on the scale this morning and was surprised to see it almost back to normal. I just hope it gets a bit lower by my next weigh in.

It is T minus 3 days before the boyfriend and I hit the open road and get on our way to New York. We love us some road trips!!! In 2005, we drove from Los Angeles, CA all the way to Atlanta, GA. It was the awesomest. Google maps says it is only about 15 hours from here to New York, so not as long as our first road trip but it should still be tons of fun. I am so super excited but a bit nervous because it is a long trip and we are doing it all at once. Uh oh, that's a very scary thought.

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Weekly Re-cap #1

I haven't been around because I haven't been doing much. Well, except for eating way too much.

Last week was a fast food filled week! And it totally showed on the scale. The scale was up 1.6 pounds. Eek!!

With so much food, there wasn't much workouts. My workout buddy was sick so we didn't get to the gym pretty much all week. The only days I actually worked out were Monday and Saturday. Can we say epic fail?

I was seriously craving some endorphins so I should have gotten my butt to the gym. I was in a pissy mood towards the end of the week. And I KNOW it was because of the junk I was putting into my body and the lack of exercise.

But this week is going to be different. In 10 days, the boyfriend and I are leaving to New Jersey and New York. I need to look superfly so that I fit into some shorts I've been trying to squeeze into. I'm thisclose. Well, not thisclose, but closer than I was, say, six months ago.

I celebrated my 28th birthday yesterday (Sunday). It was the bomb diggity. Nothing like a good BBQ and some chocolate cake. FYI - for a not so guilty, good ass cake, try your local Asian bakery. Their cakes are so, so, so yummy and so, so, so light. You don't get that sugar coma feeling that you get from eating cakes from a regular/grocery bakery. Trust me on this.

Gosh, I feel old. I can't believe I'm 28. Gripes!

Stay tuned for Weekly Re-Cap numba TWO!!!

Counting sheep to go to sleep - Day 29

Monday
Breakfast: kashi, banana, milk
Snack: peanut butter fiber bar
Lunch: chicken breast, rice, green beans
Snack: chili cheese fritos, string cheese
Snack: 1/2 apple, 1/2 banana
Dinner: lentils, rice

Workout: 15 min. on the elliptical, 25 minutes on the treadmill, weight machines

My eating was just OK yesterday. I seriously could have done without those chili cheese fritos. But they sure did taste good.

I was exhausted last night. I was really hesitant to work out. I just really had to push myself. Instead of the walking/jogging, I did the hill setting. Wowza! My legs and butt are super sore this AM. But I really liked the workout, so I may stick with walking hills for this week.

I didn't get enough sleep last night so today will be a blur. I'm still planning on going to the gym tonight, though. It feels weird if I don't go. Like I'm missing something. Is that weird or what?

I need a longer weekend...

I wonder if I can remember what happened this weekend:

Friday
Breakfast: sausage and egg croissant, hash browns, coke
Lunch: a lean gourmet thing
Snacks: peanut butter egg, lots of M&M peanut butter eggs, string cheese, apple,
Dinner: pork chop, rice, potatoes, salad

Workout: 15 min. elliptical, 30 min. walk/jog on treadmill, weight machines (legs, arms, back, chest, shoulders)

Saturday
Breakfast: egg wrap
Lunch: soup, rice
Dinner: Colombian hamburger, french fries
Later on: lots of chips and some popcorn

Workout: Day off

Sunday
Breakfast: egg wrap
Snack: Kashi bar
Lunch: 1/2 Southwest chicken wrap, protein shake
Dinner: rice, chicken breast, green beans, salad

Workout: 45 min. with personal trainer

It was definitely a food-filled weekend.

But we're moving on.

I did get my time in the gym. Sunday was the boyfriend and I's complimentary session with the personal trainer. Man, it was tough. Not so much painful, but it left me out of breath a couple of times. But it felt great. He talked over some prices with us. They are pretty expensive so I seriously doubt we'll be having any sessions with one soon. I am going to steal some moves from Sunday's session though. I'll work them into my workout and take it from there. Sneaky, sneaky...

FYI
For every pound you lose, you alleviate pressure on your knees by 4 pounds,

according to twitter.com/davezinczenko. Check him out, he posts some very interesting things.

Day....I don't know

I went to bed at 2:30 am this morning. I am so exhausted. The boyfriend had some friends over and I stood up late finishing laundry. I am so looking forward to getting a good night's rest tonight.

Thursday
Breakfast: kashi, banana, milk
Snack: fiber bar
Lunch: 2 slices of pizza, 2 chocolate pasty things
Pre-workout snack: apple, string cheese
Dinner: BLTT from the gym cafe (their stuff is so good and so good for you but so damn pricey!)

Workout: cardio day - 15 minutes elliptical, 45 minutes jogging/walking on treadmill

That is not what I had planned for my lunch. At work, it was really crazy so the boss ordered pizza for us. I ate some and totally regretted it. The pizza made my stomach so uncomfortable. I must have gone to the bathroom like 6 times (I know, TMI!). I don't know what happened but I did not feel good. I'm staying away from pizza for a while.

I almost forgot to weigh in this morning. I kinda wish I had forgotten. The scale was down 2 pounds. And this is an official 2 pounds. No flukes, no water weight, just fat. I really though it would be a little more because I have been so on point with the workouts and have done a better job on eating in a long time. However, I am definitely happy with two pounds. Plus, I'm at the lowest that I've been in a long time. And that feels rilly good!

Have a great weekend!

Day 24

Wednesday
Breakfast: scrambled egg wrap
Snack: strawberries, string cheese
Lunch: ajiaco, rice
Snack: carrots w/ peanut butter
Pre-workout snack: apple, 1/2 fiber bar
Dinner: rice, chicken leg, 4 slices of potatoes, tomato and avocado salad

Workout: 15 minutes on the elliptical, 30 minutes walking/jogging, weight machines (shoulders, back, chest, arms, legs)

Another day of 3 hours at the gym. My workout was probably an hour and fifteen minutes long so most of the time I was just waiting for the boyfriend to finish his workout. Then we went to the jacuzzi. That was the greatest idea ever! The water was so warm and felt so good on my sore muscles. I could have fallen asleep in there. I will definitely be jacuzzing a couple of times a week from now on.

My eating was great. The only oopsie was a Reeses Peanut Butter Egg. But don't worry, I have gotten it out of my system and won't be eating one of those in the near future.

Well, last night I needed some shorts to go to the jacuzzi at the gym. I do not wear a bathing suit without shorts in public. Never have, never will. Anyways, the only shorts I have are a pair that I have not worn since last summer. I seriously thought they wouldn't fit because I think I am more fluffier now than I was almost a year ago. But I could be wrong because the shorts fit. Not a perfect fit, but good enough so that I didn't feel uncomfortable for people other than my boyfriend to see me in them. I know if I hadn't been working out these past weeks there is no way I would have fit my chunky butt into them. I can't wait to see what else I can fit into.

=D

Day 23

Tuesday
Breakfast: kashi, milk, banana
Snack: ginormous chocolate chip cookie
Lunch: arroz con pollo, watermelon
Snack: carrots and cucumbers w/ dip
Pre-Gym Snack: string cheese, apple
Dinner: ajiaco, rice and avocado

That pesky chocolate chip cookie somehow managed to come back into my life. It's okay, though. It's been a while since I've had one. The good thing is that I only ate one. Those damn cookies are on special right now 2 for 1. Even the store clerk reminded me that they were on special. But no thanks, one was good enough for me.

It was cardio day so I did 15 minutes on the elliptical and 45 minutes of walking/jogging on the treadmill. Wow, I've come a long way since my measly 20 minute workouts, huh?

Day 22

Sunday night, I was at the gym for about 3 hours. Monday, night I was at the gym for 3 hours. Now tell me, what's this world coming to?

Monday
Breakfast: kashi, milk, banana
Snack: watermelon, carrots w/ dip
Lunch: 2 slices of veggie pizza
Snack: apple, string cheese
Pre-workout snack: 1/2 chicken wrap
Dinner: arroz con pollo, salad, 1 pc. of plantain

Wow, I could honestly say it was a pretty excellent day.

The boyfriend and I stayed so long at the gym because we had our fitness assessment with a personal trainer. Now I'm not sure if it was because...well, I don't really know what it was, but I was not feeling the trainer. He really didn't sell me on his services. First off, he did not give us his undivided attention. There were so many distractions and it was just so impersonal. Not a great way to sell yourself, buddy. Plus, he didn't really tell me anything I didn't already know. I can't judge all personal trainers off this one incident but I'm not sure they are for me. We scheduled a workout session for the weekend, so maybe he'll change my mind. But as of right now, a personal trainer is a no-go.

My workout consisted of 15 minutes on the elliptical and 30 minutes on the treadmill. And I am happy to say, I have started jogging. Yes, people, I have started jogging. All 255 pounds of me was jogging on that treadmill. I seriously thought I was going to break something. I only did 2-3 minute intervals with lots of walking in between but whoa!, that was good enough for me. I also got in some chest, bicep and back exercises on the weight machines. I don't know how well I'll do with the machines. I am super self-conscious so I'm not that comfortable working out in front of tons of people. I don't think that'll help me get a more efficient workout. I have to think about what I'll be doing on the strength aspect of my regime.

After, 2 days at the gym, I feel great. My legs are a bit sore and stiff, but it still feels awesome. Joining the gym has got to be one of the smartest things I have done this year!

Day 19, 20 & 21

Let's see if I can correctly recall what happened this weekend.

Friday
Breakfast: ???? (I can't remember)
Lunch: fish sandwhich, french fries
Dinner: pasta with tomato cream sauce and shrimp, 2 slices bread

Workout: 20 minutes HIIT, ALA strength exercises

Saturday
Breakfast/lunch: chicken soup, arepa with cheese
snack: banana
Dinner: steamed rice, veggies, teriyaki chicken
Late night: >2 beers, lots of chips, waffle

Workout: ALA strength exercises

Sunday
Breakfast: kashi with milk
Lunch: shrimp, rice, avocado and strawberry salad, chicken with peaches, 1 pc. of banana, coconut, & pineapple cake; small scoop of fruit salad (this was my Easter meal)
Dinner: small turkey sandwich, 2 slices pizza

Workout: 15 minutes on the elliptical, 30 minutes on the treadmill (walking), 2 chest exercises

I think I ate fairly decent over the weekend. A lot less than I have eaten in the past. With the exception of some M&Ms that I went crazy with while preparing my nephew and niece's Easter baskets, I didn't do too bad with the sweets. On Easter day, the only candy I ate was a handful of jelly beans. I think that deserves a pat on the back.

I have now completed 3 weeks of consistent exercise. What's my record? I can't remember at the moment so I'll have to go back and check. I think it's 4 weeks so I still have a bit to go before I can bring out the champagne and celebrate. I am still celebrating though. I feel great and can tell that the workouts are working.

The boyfriend and I joined a gym. Yes, the boyfriend tricksed me! But I think it is for the best. Can't you tell? I did an extra 15 minutes of workout at the gym. I never would have done that at home. Plus, this gym is so pretty! The machines are all shiny and they just call out to you. Except for the stair climber...that one is scary. I do believe the gym will become my second home.

Tonight, the boyfriend and I have a complimentary session with a personal trainer. I am so scared. Personal trainers are so intimidating. They really do scare me. But since this will probably be the only session (since PTs cost way too much), I need to get as much as I can out of him. I'm hoping things go good tonight.

I think some very interesting things are coming my way!

Day 18 and a YAHOO!

I am officially at my lowest weight! Well, not my lowest lowest weight, but at the lowest I have been in a long time. It's only 0.2 pounds lower than my last lowest weight (did that make sense?) but hey, it's my lowest!

With that being said, the scale was down 1.2 pounds this week. I'm psyched! And a little disappointed. Only because I know the scale could have been down a bit more, but yesterday's eating was not so great. Totally my fault. But totally not worried because I know next week, I am totally going to kill it at my weigh-in.

Thursday Meals (Viewer's discretion is advised)
Breakfast: big breakfast, small coke
Lunch: rice and carrots, peanut butter fiber bar
Snack: fruit (watermelon, melon, grapes, pineapple) and string cheese
Dinner: Zaxby's house salad with grilled chicken and small order of crinkle fries

Sodium overload! And I totally felt it. My tummy felt nice and fluffy yesterday. It wasn't a good day.

Workout: 20 minutes HIIT
It wasn't a strength day so it was a bit rough on the elliptical. But I did complete the 20 minutes and it was another great, sweaty workout.

I probably won't be on this weekend so I wanted to wish everyone a Happy Easter. Have lots of fun, find lots of eggs, and don't eat any candy!!

Day 17

Wednesday's eating was all kinds of wrong. I was really bored at work so what do I do to pass the time? I eat.

Breakfast: scrambled eggs with tomatoes and 1/2 hotdog weenie, toast w/ butter and jelly, chocolate milk
Snack: 1 clementine
Lunch: rice, tuna and green bean salad, 2 bites of the bf's philly cheesesteak, handful of chips, 1/4 Jason's Deli roast beef sandwhich (it was small, I swear), 1/2 JD brownie, 1/4 tuna sandwhich and another handful of chips
Dinner: rice, carrots, pork chop

The workout was my beloved ALA strength exercises and 20 minutes of HIIT on my archnemesis, the elliptical machine. God, I really hate that machine. But deep down, I really do love it.

Day 16

I caved and peeked at the scale this morning. I am very pleased with myself. Hopefully, I will be pleased with myself when I weigh in on Friday morning.

I didn't want to post my menu for Tuesday as it was not a very healthy one. Not unhealthy because of the things I ate but because of how much I ate. I didn't eat very much and the things I did eat were not nutritionally rich. But here goes.

Breakfast: 2 slices of toast with butter
Snack: carrots and dip
Lunch: popcorn
Snack: 2 clementines
Snack: tostada with butter
Dinner: rice, tuna and green bean salad, 2 pieces of plantain

Workout: 20 minutes of HIIT

There was no freakiness on the elliptical machine. I was able to get a great workout in. A very late one at that. When I got home from work, I rested a bit. Then rested some more. Watched American Idol and the Biggest Loser. And at 9:45 PM, I hopped on my machine and worked out. I didn't do any strength exercises beforehand, so it was a bit tougher on my legs but I still finished it.

Hooray for 16 days!!

Day 15

I can't believe I've made it to Day 15!!

Monday
Breakfast: 3 oatmeal cookies
Snack: carrots and dip
Lunch: Pb & j, apple
Snack: 2 clementines
Snack: 1 oatmeal cookie, 1/2 hot dog weenie
Dinner: rice, Swiss chard, chicken, 1/2 potato, avocado

Workout: ALA, 20 minutes HIIT

My menus for the next couple of days will not be nutritionally sound because I'm poor and I'm trying to eat what's in the pantry and fridge (actually, I don't have much of a choice). But it seems to be working out okay for me. Except for those oatmeal cookies. I just didn't have enough time in the AM to get something with a little bit more nutritional value. But, hey, they had oatmeal and raisins. That's got to count for something.

The strangest thing happened to me yesterday. As I was finishing up my HIIT on the elliptical, I got this weird tightness in my chest. Not a painful tightness, more like an uncomfortable tightness. It was while I was doing my superfast interval. I'm not sure it was because I was hungry because right after my workout, I rested a bit then ate dinner and I started to feel better. Or it could have been because I was really pushing myself to go superfast and I just got out of breath. Whatever it was, it was pretty weird and I hope it doesn't happen again.

Just what I needed, another excuse NOT to work out. =/

Day 13 & Day 14

Saturday
Breakfast: fresh carrot, pear, and apple juice, kashi and milk
Lunch: ajiaco, rice, salad
Dinner: 3 slices of pizza

Things I shouldn't have eaten: 1 PB egg and that 3rd slice of pizza

Workout
ALA

Sunday
Breakfast: chocolate chip pancakes (yummy!!)
Lunch: parmesan chicken with angel hair pasta, salad with fruit
Dinner: rice and plantain (a very small piece)
Snacks: 3 oatmeal cookies (the best oatmeal cookies I have made so far)

Workout
20 minutes HIIT

Completing 2 weeks of consistent workouts feels AMAZING. I really am seeing a difference in my arms and legs. I have yet to see anything in my tummy but I'm guessing that's where the fat is going to go last. =/

I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and got a bit discouraged. I have such a long way to go. It's frustrating. I think I am working hard and it's just depressing to think that I may not see results for a long time.

Woe is me.

I just have to take it one day at a time. This is going to be a true test of my patience. I hope this weight doesn't defeat me once again. I'm way too old and I've been like this for way too long now.

Something's gotta give.

Day 12

Friday was a good day.

The workout consisted of 20 minutes of HIIT and ALA strength. It was a good one. My arms were super sore, but I fought through it and completed the workout.

My eating was just okay.

Breakfast: scrambled eggs with onions (sounds weird but it's really good), toast
Snack: 2 clementines
Lunch: rice, chicken with potatoes
Dinner: Colombian hamburger and french fries

Two things I really shouldn't have eaten were a chocolate chip cookie (you know, the ginormous ones) and 2 small pieces of brownie.

The boyfriend and I decided that we will only eat out once a week. He's trying to lose weight, too. And we eat out way too much. So once once a week is good enough.

Speaking of my boyfriend. I am so jealous of him. He's just barely started getting into cardio and his tummy is shrinking already. WTF?? I have so much more ways to go than him and I know he's going to see results so much quicker than me.

Oh, how I hate him. <3

Day 11

My arms are killing me!! And I didn't even do any arm exercises yesterday. They have been sore since my last arm workout which means it was a VERY good workout. Tonight is my strength day so bring on the pain!

Day 11's workout consisted of 20 minutes of HIIT on the elliptical. The creaking noise on the foot pedal of my machine isn't as annoying as it used to be. Especially if I have my music on really loud. I can't believe I let such a little thing stop me from getting a good sweat going.

The scale was down 0.8 pounds this morning. Yes!!! It isn't much but it's almost a pound and it's definitely in the right direction. I'm so close to being under 255 that I can taste it.

It sure tastes good!!

Day 10

I finally got 20 minutes of HIIT on the elliptical. With annoying noise and all. I just said "F*** it!" and went for it. I know the hardest part of working out is that little fight you have with yourself. "Should I do it or should I not?" is how my battles usually go. But yesterday, I didn't even think about it and did the damn thing. And the time really did fly by. I always make it seem like a big deal but after I've done it, it's really not.

I also added in an extra set to my strength workouts. Boy, did I really feel those extra 12 reps. "No pain, no gain", right?

It was a great day for working out.

And I'm glad to say that I did not stop for chocolate chip cookies this morning. I would be lying if I said I wasn't thinking about it. But they're totally not worth it. I am not about to throw away that great workout.

Day 9

I have been eating way too much.

And my tummy is not happy with me right now.

I know that when I eat chocolate chip cookies for breakfast, I feel like crap for the rest of the day. So why do I continue to eat chocolate chip cookies for breakfast?

Woe is me.

Anyways...

I was googling exercises this morning and came across a great one. I sit at a desk 8-9 hours a day. Besides, the occasional stroll throughout my suite, I don't get any exercise during the day. The thing is, I sit at the reception area so I can't really do much without getting caught. So, moves I can do underneath my desk are GOLD to me. They save me from some very awkward moments.

I tried this one already and really like it.

Taken from About.com

Leg Extensions

1. Sit tall in a chair or on a ball with the abs engaged.
2. Keeping the body stable, straighten the right leg, foot flexed, and try to bring it up until the leg is parallel to the floor.
3. Lower the leg back down, lightly touching the heel to the floor, and repeat for 16-20 reps before switching sides.
4. You'll feel this in the front of the thighs as well as in the hip flexors of the working leg.

"The leg extension is a simple, classic exercise targeting the quadriceps muscles. This exercise is great for anyone who needs to strengthen the muscles surrounding the knee to provide more stability and support."

You really feel it in the front of your thigh. Trust me.

Any more exercises that can be done incognito, underneath a work desk??

By the way, yesterday was my off day from workout. =)

Days 6, 7 and 8

Day 6
ALA (arms, legs, abs) workout

Day 7
no workout

Day 8
ALA workout

I have yet to find a cardio workout that is right for me. The elliptical machine is still making that annoying noise. I tried to use it this weekend but I am seriously not feeling it. The weather has been pretty crappy here so an outside walk doesn't seem to be calling out to me, either. I need to find something because I need some CARDIO in my life.

The good thing about doing my strength workouts: my arms are definitely toning up. There's still some fat that I need to get through, but my shoulders and arms are starting to get some definition. The boyfriend says he can see a difference in my legs but I haven't noticed yet. I am too busy admiring my arms.

On the food front, I was doing so well with not having had fast food for one week. There was no breakfast food at the house yesterday morning so I caved and picked something up. There was LOTS of snacking going on too. I made these awesome mini muffins and while the boyfriend had friends over, I was downstairs in close proximity to said muffins. All I can say is it wasn't pretty.

Day 5

I lost a pound last week, so I needed to celebrate, right? And what's a celebration without lots of FOOD?*

Breakfast: turkey sandwich
Snack: cottage cheese, pineapple
Lunch: Michelina's Frozen thing
Dinner: red potatoes, chickpea salad, grilled chicken, grilled fajitas

Should have nots: 2 ginormous chocolate chip cookies, Mars bar, lots of soda

No workout =(

The boyfriend ended up inviting some friends over for a BBQ and they didn't end up leaving until real late. I was busy preparing some food for the feast so I never got the chance to workout. It's days like this where I wish I woke up early to get one in.

My legs feel like I hiked miles yesterday. They are sore and my feet hurt. I was wondering why when I remembered I wore a higher than usual heel to work yesterday. It was only a 2 inch heel but, sheesh, what a workout. Hmmm??? Can I be on to something?

*I am totally kidding.

Day 4

TGIF!

And it is soooo nice outside! I'm going to try to talk the boyfriend into going to the park for a walk after work.

I wanted to post some food pictures but I can't seem to remember to bring my USB (?) cable for my camera into work. =/

Thursday
Breakfast: turkey sandwich
Snack: Kashi and milk
Lunch: arroz con pollo
Snack: queso fresco, 2 clementines
Dinner: Rice, chickpea salad, Baked Chicken with Dijon and Lime (yummy!!)

The only things I shouldn't have had was one chocolate marshmallow egg and a 16 oz. Dr. Pepper. I was really thirsty in the morning so I stopped by to pick up something to drink. I bet if I had just waited until I got to work and had a glass of water, that would have quenched my thirst just fine.

I did get to do my arms, legs, and abs workout. Go me! I'd rather work with weights than cardio ANY DAY!! But I know, to get in a really well-rounded workout, I need to do it. Besides, I was looking at myself in the mirror while I was working out. It wasn't a pretty picture. And in order to start burning all of this fat off, I NEED to get me some cardio in. Plus, I hear it's good for my heart. ;)

I was really eager to weigh myself this morning because I have been better with my eating than I have been in a while. And the scale says: I am down 1.4 pounds. I'm happy that I'm going in the right direction but I will not be that happy until I get under 255 since I'm just losing and gaining the same couple of pounds over and over again. Now that's when the partying will really start!!

Day 3

So close...

...yet so far.

Wednesday
Breakfast: turkey and pickle sandwich, strawberries and blueberries
Snack: apple w/ peanut butter
Lunch: rice, chicken breast, chickpea salad
Snack: piece of queso fresco, 2 clementines
Dinner: arroz con pollo, salad

And the only thing I shouldn't have had was 1 slice of Hawaiian pizza.

I was so close. But I feel that I did have a pretty good day. It would have been even better if I had worked out. The boyfriend had some friends over and they didn't leave until pretty late. Now that I think about it, I could have worked out in the other bedroom but I didn't think his company was going to stay so long so I was waiting to work out in my bedroom. Now I know, if there is a place to workout, just do it and get it over with. If I wait around, I won't get around to it.

Day 2

It's been awhile since I've had a great day, but Tuesday was pretty good.

Breakfast: turkey sandwhich
Snack: berries and Kashi
Lunch: Lentils, rice, hamburger patty
Snack: 2 clementines
Dinner: chicken breast, rice, green beans

2 (3) things I really didn't need to have: 2 ginormous chocolate chip cookies and 1 marshmallow chocolate a co-worker gave me

When I got home, I rested for a bit, put on my workout gear and hit the weights. I did some great sets of arm and leg exercises. Then I attempted HITT on the elliptical. I didn't have much success there. The elliptical machine started making this weird (annoying ) noise. It appears to make it only when I am on it, so I'm figuring that I am just too damn fat for my machine. Seriously though, the noise was bothering me and I really wasn't feeling it. I think I'm getting bored of the elliptical machine. I really look forward to my weight session but thinking about the elliptical machine really brings me down. I lasted about 4 minutes on that blasted machine and then finished it off with some ab work.

I need to find some new forms of cardio.

Let's try this again...Day 1

I was really hoping to start my second week yesterday, but no go. Out of the 5 workout days I had planned, I only completed 3. Plus, the weekend eating was...well, it wasn't too bad except for a couple of things I really shouldn't have eaten. Nonetheless, I thought I'd start off fresh.

Monday's eating was pretty good. The boyfriend started working with one of my tenants so I packed our lunch and snacks for us to share throughout the day.

Breakfast: Kashi Berry Crumble, milk
Snack: berries, half a turkey and pickle sandwich
Lunch: Michelina's Lean Gourmet something or other, chickpea salad
Snack: half an apple, peanut butter
Dinner: lentils, rice, hamburger patty

It sounds pretty good, right? Well, it would have been REALLY good except that I forgot to mention that there were 2 chocolate chip cookies involved. Two ginormous chocolate chip cookies. The boyfriend tried to talk me out of eating them but with Stubborn being my middle name, I was doing what I wanted to do and not listening to anybody.

When we got home from work, we decided to lay down and take a 20 minute nap before getting to our workouts. 3 hours later we woke up. Doh! I guess the time change really messed with us or we just didn't get enough sleep this weekend but we knocked out until 9:30 pm. I'm sad to say there was no workout last night.

But it's just the start of the week and there is still a chance for us to have a good week. As long as we get our 5 days of workouts, me and the boyfriend are good as gold!

Day 4

Thursday nights workout was a yummy one again. Strength training: arms, legs, and abs; and 20 minutes of HIIT on the elliptical. I seriously love this workout.

I was much better with my snacking at work, too. I didn't eat so much. Maybe because I kept myself so busy at work. I guess that's the secret! I didn't have time to think about food. And if I'm not thinking about it, I ain't eating it!

It's still rainy outside. The sun hasn't been out in 3 days! But it is Friday, so it's going to be a great day!!

Oh yeah...

...I forgot.

I was up 0.8 pounds this week. Eeeek. But I ate way too much this week for there to be a loss so I'm not really surprised.

And to top it all off...fluffy days are back again. =(

At least I have another week to try again!

Day 3?

I decided to take the day off from a workout last night. When I got home, I was really sleepy so instead of hitting the elliptical machine, I hit the sack and took a 20 minute nap before heading over to the boyfriend's sisters house for a birthday dinner. Taking one day off between workout days is a very good thing because I am REALLY looking forward to tonights workout!

My eating has been....there, I guess. I have been snacking way too much at work. I have finally discovered that my mindless eating is in direct correlation with my constant boredom. You see, my job can be a bit boring at times. There are times when I am super busy and there are times where I am just staring at the clock watching the minutes count down. Well, I find that when me and the clock are in a staring contest, that is when I stuff my face...even if I'm not hungry. I'm not sure what I can do to solve this little problem of mine. This little problem is turning into a huge problem for my ass. Do you guys have any tips on how to control the boredom eating?

I was going to start complaining on how we are going on Day 2 of rainy weather and how it sucks so bad and blah, blah, blah...but I'm not. Instead, I'll say that I'm thankful I got to wake up another day with my boyfriend by my side and my kitty at my feet. Today is a great day!

Day 2

Tuesday Workout: 20 min. HIIT, strength (arms, abs, legs)

It was a yummy workout.

It would've been an even yummier day if I hadn't snacked so much. Kinda defeats the whole purpose of working out, right? Oh, when will this vicious cycle end?



Have you ever wondered where your fat goes? I've seen this come up in conversations on different forums and it really has me thinking. Where does all that weight go when you lose it? Does it just evaporate into thin air? I wonder if there is a scientific study as to what the hell happens to fat.

But who really cares, right? Just as long as it comes off my body, I really don't care where the heck it goes!

Day 1

If you look at the title of this post, you'll see that I have completed Day 1 of semi-good eating and a workout.

The workout consisted of HIIT for 30 minutes. It was awesome.

The plan for this week is to work out 5 days.

Another plan is to eat better.

Remember, failing to plan is planning to fail.

I have my freedom but I don't have much time

Am I in the right place? Isn't this supposed to be a weight loss blog? I think I'm just going to call it a blog from now on because there is no weight loss happening here.

The scale read 258.4 this morning. Yup, I'm up that 0.8 pounds that I lost last week. I didn't expect much of a loss because I haven't been 100% on point. I have been lots better, but not where I need to be to be losing weight.

Thursday - no workout

See? I told you it's harder for me when the boyfriend isn't working out.

Let me take this time to apologize to my readers (if there are any left). I know some people look to weight loss blogs for motivation and inspiration. I have not been very motivating or inspirational as of late (or ever?). But I think I am like lots of people who are on this journey. We are more talk than action. We know what we need to do, but have a hard time getting it done.

But I truly believe that one day we will have THEE moment where we realize it's time to stop dicking around and finally start doing something.

I hope you guys stick around long enough so that I can share MY moment with you. =)

She's nothing like a girl you've ever seen before

Tuesday - no workout
Wednesday - 20 min. HIIT, arms & abs

So, working out Mon-Fri didn't work out too much. I'll have to get a workout in on Saturday or Sunday. It's going to be tough working out this week because the boyfriend is super sick and can't work out. I always get lazy when he doesn't work out with me. It sucks not having your exercise buddy =(. I'll just have to try not being a weenie and do the workouts on my own.

My eating hasn't been too bad either. True, I did go a little snack crazy on Wednesday, but overall I've had some good days. So far, I have stuck to the sugary stuff (soda) once a day. That's a great feat my friends. I used to drink that stuff as if it were water. So bad for me. I know I'm being a tad healthier drinking it just once a day. Not 100% healthy, but healthier.

What we do is innocent

Friday workout - 20 min. HIIT, legs

Sat-Sun - =(

Mon - 20 min HIIT, arms and abs

20 minutes wasn't much, but it was something and I got a great sweat out of it. For some reason, the boyfriend and I get really lazy on the weekend. We are going to concentrate on getting a workout Mon-Fri and not so much on the weekend. I think 5 days a week of workouts is a good thing.

Hooray for semi-good eating. Yesterday, I planned out all my meals and with a few non-planned items, I have to say it was a good day. I only had soda ONCE! And it wasn't even that much, maybe about 4 ounces. Soda is so my downfall every time. I love the stuff. But Dr. Oz says you should treat soda like a dessert. And you don't have dessert all throughout the day. You have it once. So, soda once a day isn't so much a bad thing. And maybe one day, it'll be once a week. But right now, I'm just working on not drinking it a gazillion times a day. Baby steps, my friends.

I'm findin' it hard to believe we're in heaven

Loss for the week: 0.8 pounds

As God as my witness, the scale will be much lower next week. Even if I have to cut off a leg!!

Have a great weekend everybody!

If I 'm not back again this time tomorrow

Tuesday - no workout

Wednesday - 30 min. HIIT, arms and abs

I finally got a workout in. I really needed it. Now all I need to do is keep working out for the rest of the week.

My eating wasn't the greatest these past couple of days either. But I'm here today and I'm going to TRY to stick to what I have planned to eat.



I'm thinking of proposing. Do you think they'll marry me?

Oh,how I love thee

Yes, I'm proposing to a cereal. I found this stuff at Wal-Mart a couple of weeks ago and just got around to trying it this week. Two words: Yum O. This cereal tastes so much like Captain Crunch Crunch Berries. But it's good for you!! It doesn't stay crunchy the way the two Kashi Go Lean Crunches do, so I wouldn't really recommend eating this with yogurt (the way I usually eat Kashi) as it will get soggy quicker. But 'tis awesome in milk. And it's been awhile since I've eaten cereal the way it should be eaten. This is has been my morning breakfast the past couple of days and will continue to be until I get tired of it or Wal-Mart runs out of it, whichever comes first.

Tell me all your thoughts on God

As you can tell by now, if I'm not posting that means I'm not doing much.

The last day I worked out was Friday (3o min. HIIT). And I think the last healthy meal I had was Friday night, also. It's been a lazy food filled 3 days.

But I'm over it and moving on.

Plus, the boyfriend says I can't play with the Cricut tonight if I don't workout. And I'm almost done with a project, so I HAVE to get my workout on tonight.

RECIPES
There is no meat allowed in our house on Fridays. I sneak my meat in at work...tee hee. So last Friday I tried out some vegetarian recipes.


You can find the Black Bean Burger recipe here. Seriously, this stuff is good.

And do you want to meet my new boyfriend? You see that salad in the pic. Yup, that's him. You can find that recipe here. That chickpea salad is AWESOME.

Which brings me to a question that I have: how in the heck do you prepare chickpeas? I know you open the can and rinse them out, but are you supposed to peel them before tossing them in the salad or leave the peels on and eat 'em? I peeled the entire can of chickpeas before making the salad and it was very time consuming. So, it really makes me wonder if I'm doing it right.

Sorry for the denseness, guys.

Why is it the smallest things that tear us down?

The party continues!!

Just kidding. I'm tired of wallowing in my self-pity. I just need to suck it up and take it like a man. I will not see results until I actually start doing something!

After yesterday's frightful eating, I knew the scale would not be happy with me. I was up 1.2 pounds for the week. But, oh no, I will not cry about it. Remember, I will not see results until I actually start doing something!

And I did get a workout in yesterday. 30 minutes of HIIT on the elliptical machine. I sweated buckets so a good workout it was, indeed.

Did you notice a new section over there -------->? Well, one of my big problems is I go through the drive-thru way too much. I also stop at the gas station or Kroger for little snacks and drinks that I really don't need. I tried not carrying money with me but that didn't work too much. So, I think I'm going to try the "shame on me" method. I'm pretty embarrassed at all the money I spend on junk food. But that's not enough to stop me. So maybe, if the entire blogging world saw how much I spent, I'd be a little less inclined to spend it. Catch my drift? This method may be totally useless but it's worth giving a shot.

My jeans were tight this morning, so I'm open to trying anything that will help me.

Enjoy your weekend. The weather will be supernice here, so I know I will!

And she'll never know your story like I do

Woe is me.

Seriously, woe is me.


Have you ever had a 2.5 pound weight fall on your foot?

Believe you me, it hurts hella bad.


But that's not the reason for the woe.

It's been two days since I last worked out.

Tuesday, I got a new present in the mail and I have been waiting all of my life for it, so I played with it some (in case, you're wondering, the present was a Cricut Expression...Tuesday was the happiest day of my life!). Wednesday, the boyfriend has been sick and is in full blown babymewoeisme mode. So, instead of working out, we cuddled in bed watching the lamest movie ever made!! The movie was so bad it was funny, so a good time was had by all.

Now I feel like caca.

Sorry about the visual...by the way, have you guys ever googled POOP? People are so gross!

And I've been stuffing my face with caca, so I'm sure you get the picture on how I am really feeling.


Tomorrow is my weigh in day, so make sure you guys have your dancing shoes on because the pity party will probably continue on 'til then!!

She like a song played again and again

I know it's late, but some V-Day treats that I made. Those cookies are death to your waistline!!

Monday workout - 30 min. HIIT on the elli

Phew! I seriously needed those 30 minutes. They were tough. My thighs were on fire and I was a hurtin', but I did the full 30 minutes. I kept wanting to give up after 15 minutes, then 20 minutes, until finally the 30 minutes was up. I'm so glad I didn't give up. I would have felt like a failure afterwards. And I never would have heard the end of it from the boyfriend. =)

My eating was really bad yesterday. I finished off the last of some Valentine's Day cookies that I had baked. They were super yum, but super bad for you. And way sweet. There is one cookie left in the break room, but I will not, I say I will not eat it. I have my snacks and meals all planned out, so today should be a doozy. Besides, I'm seriously tired of the gross feeling in my tummy. You know that feeling...the bloated, stuffed, food baby feeling. Trust me, it's not pretty.

Have a great day everybody!

When you gonna give me some time, Sharona?

I'm in a bad mood.

I think it's all this crap I've been eating.

Plus, no workouts.

That makes for a grumpy me.

I didn't get a workout in Friday - Sunday. On Saturday, the boyfriend and I took a train downtown to catch a football match and there was lots of walking involved. Seriously. My entire body was sore Sunday morning. But, according to my boyfriend, that is not an official workout. So last week, I only worked out 3 days. Yeesh. That's been one of my worst weeks.

But I must workout today. My body is seriously craving it. I guess that's what happens when you make it a regular part of your day. Plus, I could use the extra dose of endorphins. Bad moods just kill me.

I'm off to read blogs. They always cheer me up.

Two can make that dream so real

Tuesday - 30 minutes elliptical
Wednesday - off
Thursday - 30 min. elli & arms/abs

I have been doing really well on the workout front. The eating front is another story. I have been eating way too much and all the wrong things. What can I say? I love to eat. And all the bad foods are what my belly wants. And right now, my belly is boss. One day, my brain will take over. Until then, I will still try fighting the good fight.

I changed my weigh-ins to Friday. So this morning, the scale showed a 1 pound loss. That's pretty lame since I have lost this one pound a billion times already. But it keeps creeping back. Man, I want to lose a new pound already. But I know I need to work harder on it. So really, I have no right to complain. But that's me. I like to complain.

Have a great weekend and a Happy Valentine's Day!

I dream of love as time runs through my hand

It's another start to a great day here. Except it looks as if it might rain later. =(

Yesterday's eating was way weird. There was no lunch for me to bring, so I ended up with popcorn and Cherry Coke from Target. Then I went on to a couple of handful of Peanut M&Ms (drool) throughout the day. I'm going to have to count Monday as a bad eating day.

Breakfast: Kashi Go Lean Crunch, banana, milk
Lunch: popcorn
Snacks: apple, handfuls of M&Ms
Dinner: rice, cauliflower casserole, roasted chicken legs

My workout consisted of 30 minutes on the elliptical. Grrreat workout! The boyfriend kept bothering me because I haven't done Slim in 6 in 3 days. He doesn't understand that I get bored doing the same thing, so it's good to change things up. According to him, I'm "slacking off". Hah!! Just because he can do the same workout for 6 months straight. Ah men...they are so easily amused.

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I usually buy the Regular Kashi GoLean Crunch, but have been wanting to try this flavor for awhile now.

It had the same great Kashi crunch. I hate soggy cereals and Kashi always stays crunchy to the last spoonful. It was a bit blander than the regular, so if regular is too sweet for you this one is the way to go. Plus, it has slivers of almonds and we all know that almonds make the world go round.

And I feel the way that every child should

Grrr!! I am up 2.8 pounds for the week. I know I didn't make the best food choices so that's where my gain is from. I'm thinking of changing my weigh in day to Friday. That way all the damage that I've done on the weekend doesn't show up so much.

Friday - Ramp It Up
Saturday - off
Sunday - 30 min. elliptical

And that my friends, concludes my first month of consistent exercise!! I have exercised for one month. That feels good to be able to say that. I'm thinking of taking measurements just to see my progress so far. Especially after that gain on the scale, I need some pick-me-up.

This is the longest that I have been working out in a really long time. 6 years to be exact. I am the Queen of the Start and Stop routine. And this is the first time, since 2004, that I have been keeping it up for 4 weeks straight.

I so deserve a pat on the back. =)

Faded pictures on the wall, it's like they talking to me

Wow, I am on a roll. 3 good days in a row!

I ate all of my planned meals. I did eat 3 cookies that weren't planned, but hey, I've been doing so good. I deserved a treat.

Ramp It Up was my workout. One more week on Ramp It Up and then it's on to Burn It Up. Oy vey, I am not looking forward to that.

NSV's
1. I went to Wal-Mart yesterday to pick up some groceries. I hadn't eaten lunch yet. In the check out line, the Reese's PB eggs were calling out to me. So were the million other treats that are stocked in the end lanes. I contemplated buying one for a bit, but didn't give in. I kept on snapping my gum, paid for my purchases and was on my way. That's a big deal for me because I'm a sucker for anything chocolate. I'm a sucker for anything CANDY!
2. There is this blouse that I scored on my day of awesomeness at Old Navy about a month ago. Well, I hadn't worn it because it was a bit snug in the tummy area and the buttons looked like they were going to pop off. Guess what I'm wearing today? Yes! The same blouse that didn't fit me a month ago, fits me nicely now! Woo hoo!! All that working out is paying off!

I'd put myself first and make the rules as I go

Wednesday was a perfect day. I know there is no such thing as perfect, but seriously, Wednesday was.

My eating was 100% on plan. I ate everything I had planned to eat and nothing else.

I got my workout in. Ramp It Up once again. It is definitely getting easier and easier.

And I cooked last night! I made the awesomeness that is Gina's Lighter Eggplant Parmesan.
Ok, ok, I know mine looks like a hot mess and looks nothing like Gina's but that's only because I don't know how to serve a lasagna correctly. But trust me...this stuff is a very big AWESOME. The boyfriend gave it a 10 and his parents ate it all up (and they had an extra serving!). I love Gina's! All the recipes I've tried from there have been huge successes. Check out her site (if you haven't already)!

Amanda at Becoming a Butterfly, why can't I leave you comments? (I hope you're reading this)

And another one gone and another one gone

Tuesday was a much better day!

My eating was a bit better. I was only 60% on plan, so that's a bad eating day. But if you ask me, it wasn't too bad.

I got in my Slim in 6 workout. Woo hoo! I love this stuff. My body feels more tight and toned each day that I do this. It's probably all in my head but I'd do anything for a pick-me-up. I am really trying to get in an AM workout but can't seem to get to bed at a decent hour to wake up early. I'm going to keep trying though.

I stood up late last night watching Zombieland and waiting for the boyfriend to get home from playing soccer. I am dead on my feet.

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